Tied up in knots waiting

Tied up in knots waiting

I want it clear, I do not have it in me to blog.
The only reason I am doing so now, is because I gave my word that I would honor my commitments, and I will.
I just honestly have no feelings right now that do not include….

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Pain.

So many different kinds of pain.

Physical, because of my pneumonia…
Emotional, because of dad… who is literally in the “death struggle” and fighting like mad but, of course, there is no winning.

Between the family coming in from out of town to say good bye, and the fact that my children and I are too sick to visit, and people making “suggestions” on how we “could go visit” him… I am just getting overwhelmed.

As if any of those suggestions, didn’t pass my mind, and as if I didn’t weigh those suggestions against my children’s health.. both physical and mental…

I know people “mean well”… but, now is not the time to “unintentionally” make me feel like a worse person than I feel like now.

Mentally, I know that is not their intentions… Unless they are monsters… but, knowing it, and telling my heart and feelings, are two totally different things.

It’s hard not to get angry when someone makes a “suggestion” and makes it seem as though I am doing this huge injustice to my kids, who F Y I, it’s been over 2 weeks since Vandapanda got sick and isn’t getting better, to have someone pipe up out of no where, making it seem like I do not have my children’s best interest at heart, makes me feel like a failure.. so… these photos here… this is how I feel INSIDE.

Tied.

in pain, and just tired.

I am doing my best… please… just respect that.

Always know, I will do what is best for my children. No matter what other people’s opinions are.

(before I go.. here is a link to see what the outfit looks like without a filter, and no hair covering it. )

All product, event and designer info in styling area.

Descriptions are always as follows

Item/URL | Product Name | Event | Month

I do my best to always credit everything in my photos.

No matter the length of my posts, I always include the above explanation in my styling area.

I hope that you have enjoyed this post!

Styling

Body

Shape | So Hawt SL – Shapes | Scorpius | coming soon

Head | Genesis | KIANA Bento | 3rd Anniversary-Limited Edition | Alas, if you were not in the group when the gift came out, you will likely not be able to pick it up.

Skin | Genesis | MIEKO_CAPPUCCINO

Hair | *Besom~ | Peach *Blondes*

Ears | Swallow | Pixie

Body | Maitreya | Lara

Nail Polish | Hello Dave | Dainty Doll Gold – 19 | The Darkness | December 5th, 2017

Clothing

Outfit | Wicca’s Wardrobe | Saffron | Bound Box | december 2017

Pose/props

Prop | Sari-Sari | Puppet Skybox

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